Today is a little better even though I got a bill for $307 from the hospital for lab work I recently had done. That's some bullshit right there. Checking vitamin deficiencies should not cost that much if a lithium level costs $58. But anyway. I had to go to the bank so I said "fuck it, I'm getting an iced coffee." See, little things like that I usually deny myself, because when you add up how much per week daily coffee consumption costs, it's a lot (this is actually a training module Dunkin' Donuts managers go through to track sales trends, and how I realized how much coffee I used to buy). But you know, I needed the pick-me-up. And you know what else? I've been itching for a new video game and I only buy used anyway so I bought a couple of fucking games.
|I don't feel bad not having finished the first yet|
Denying myself all the time is making me resentful of the people around me that have things. I'm not an acetic, and I never was. I like my toys and I've done really well on a very fixed income, but I need to do for me, every now and then. I may not be able to get my nails done every 3 weeks or my hair done, but the occasional used game or $5 movie at WalMart isn't going to kill me.